An Unfinished Journey

1.

 It's about an insecure girl;
who doesn't believe in anyone;
who only believes that she's a failure;
that she doesn't deserve love;
that no one understands her.
She tries to live on her own.
But the sad truth is
she doesn't believe in herself either.
She's not comfortable with herself;
and she fears being alone.
Then she starts her own journey
with ne question in mind;
"What's the point of me living in this world?"

(01.06.2018)

2.

She is Nimitya.
People are more familiar with Nitya.
People regard her as a strong and reserved woman;
a beautiful miystery to some guy;
but never a worthy home.
Despite everything, she is never seen without her smile.
It's just that no one knows what's behind the smile.
She never lets her anger or her sadness shown on her face,
not even a trace;
she doesn't even let herself.
She is afraid of being vulnerable.

(02.06.2018)

3.

In her own voice:
"May I just pack up and leave?"
That knife is always there;
on the table;
ready;
waiting.

4.

"Who are you?"
A figure approaches her;
extremely luminous that she can't really make it out.
'a friend,' it says.
'please,
just believe,' it says again.
"How can I believe in you when I don't even know who you are?"
She still can't see it.
'you know me and you know how,'
it sweeps its hand on to her shoulder.
She wakes up full of sweat.

(12.06.2018)

5.

In that small one person room,
an incredibly spacious room,
she is suffocating.
Her senses are getting dull.
She can't breathe;
she can't think;
she can't move.
What the hell happened?

(13.06.2018)