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have you ever feel that you're such a failure? that everything you do seem to be wrong. seem to be unacceptable. seem below par. that nothing you do is sufficient and pleasing.

i have. for sure.

i don't say "i had" cause there's a reason for it.

perhaps this is the so-called mid-life crisis. or perhaps this is just my PMS talking.

or even, it is time for me to seriously slap my face and kick my own but and yell "MOVE! For God's sake!"

however, do i have the privilege to sulking and pouting and just pitying myself?

i don't think so. okay, for just a very tiny bit of time, i do have it. but it's not for me to stop. it's for me reflect on myself and my past and start restructuring my plan for the future.

which path should i take?