Deep Cry

One night, I couldn't sleep

My mind couldn't stop thinking

And my heart was wild and disturbed

I planned to ignore the feeling

But you know you can never lie to your heart

You just can't shush them

They're there

Always

Eventually,

I turned to the only way I know

I held the prayer rug

Lifted both of my hands

And pray

Honestly, I couldn't describe the feeling.

It was such a revelation.

I started the prayer and, out of nowhere, I felt divine presence.

Me, a mere being, was hugged by God.

Was lovingly looked after despite all my sins and wrongdoings.

The warmth, the genuine love, it was so overwhelming I couldn't help but cried.

I felt a great guilty feeling in front of a vast unbeaten love.

Dear Allah SWT,

The Most Gracious,

The Most Merciful,

The Most Forgiving,

thank you for everything.