Just Start

 

A lot of people don't like writing.

However, I fell in love with stories early on my life.

the sound of your heart

you can always talk with other people,

like a lot of people.

ask for their opinion.

read books and try to look for clue.

listen to podcasts or watch motivational videos.

everything,

to find this so called answer.

but you forget to do one thing,

the one most important thing.

to look inside yourself.

to find it within.

not without.

Urip Iku Urup

 

This is basically a Javanese saying.

Hidup itu menyala-nyala.

someone else's well-being

embracing the last bit of sun ray

 

Several days ago, I had this random conversation with my mom on our way home. It started with a simple question of,

"How do you think a baby acquire their first language?"

it ends well (i hope)

it's ending.

well, i hope.

it's not like we both want it to end.

it's just, the circumstances we're in, the mistakes we both made,

the people who are involved,

they are all adding up to this moment.

we just can't help it.

we both need this.

screw you ghaniyya, who can't bring herself to hate him.

Series of Event

 

I believe that everything in this world is connected.

But previously,

I only saw part that is directly connected to my own life.

A very small part of all the connections in this world.

Then,

in these past few days,

something struck me.

Allah SWT is Great.

(trust me, I wanted to write this in English but I can't)

Saya menyadari seberapa kerennya, seberapa Maha Segalanya Allah SWT.

I should've known and believed in this from long way before now, but the more we think about our life, the more we contemplate, the more we be grateful, the more you realize this fact.

Can you imagine?

Every single human being, every living things in this whole wide world is connected to each other. All the events that are occurring around you are connected with you one way or another.

However, I also believe that everything that happens is not happening only because one big decision in your life, is not bound to happen because Allah SWT tells it to happen. It's more of an effect of a series of choices you've made along the way.

Allah SWT lets it happen,

after we decide which one of many would happen next.

Then the next. And so on.

But yeah, in all of those cross roads, Allah SWT always reminds you. Everytime you seem like going out of the right path, God always gives you a hint. Your heart feels the uneasiness, if only you listen to it. 

Then,

the first and the second theory being merged,

can you see it?

Can you see how Almighty God is?

How Great God is?

Dengan segala percabangan yang mungkin terjadi dari keputusan yang dibuat oleh setiap manusia, dengan sekian juta bahkan lebih manusia yang hidup di bumi ini, Allah SWT tahu dan mampu untuk mengkoneksikan segalanya.

Maha Benar Allah dengan segala firman-Nya.